Ryan's Bed

Ryan's Bed

I crawled into Ryan Jensen’s bed that first night by accident. I barely knew him. I thought it was his sister’s bed—her room. It took seconds to realize my error, and I should've left... I didn’t.I didn’t jump out.I didn’t get embarrassed.I relaxed.And that night, in that moment, it was the only thing I craved. I asked to stay. He let me, and I slept. The truth? I never wa...

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Ryan's Bed Reviews

  • Sabrina

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    I'm already a big fan of Tijan's books but this story blew me out of the water and quickly became my favorite from the author. I have full respect for someone who can write a story about a subject most others would glance over or try to romanticize without writing the full effect of it. Suicide is not pretty, but it can't be ignored and I'm so happy there are authors out there like Tijan that aren't afraid to delve into that topic.

    Reading this book shows you that su

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    I'm already a big fan of Tijan's books but this story blew me out of the water and quickly became my favorite from the author. I have full respect for someone who can write a story about a subject most others would glance over or try to romanticize without writing the full effect of it. Suicide is not pretty, but it can't be ignored and I'm so happy there are authors out there like Tijan that aren't afraid to delve into that topic.

    Reading this book shows you that suicide does not end with someones death, it then lives on in those that loved that person. We're introduced to MacKenzie on her 18th birthday, the same night her twin sister committed suicide. It's also the night she meet's Ryan, after accidentally crawling into his bed instead of his sister's. Ryan becomes her safe place, the one person that seems to understand what she's going through. Through her last year of High School, she's without her twin, but Ryan is there to help her find her way.

    This book had me bawling my eyes out at the weirdest times, and I feel like that speaks to just how real it was. The author didn't just fill the book with noticeably sad moments with MacKenzie and her family. Instead it showed the steps to her healing after such a tragic thing in her life where even at moments you would read and think, "oh she's finally getting out of the house" you will actually read and feel how painful it was for MacKenzie to try and move on with her life.

    The book is a romance, I'm not going to deny that, but it was so much more than that which is why I've pretty much rambled on this whole review about nothing more than the brilliant writing. Ryan and MacKenzie had more than just a High School romance for me, they were that couple that proves even though suicide is not pretty, as I stated above, for the survivors it can still lead to a beautiful life.

  • Corina☞BookTwinsReviews

    I'm sitting here, still reeling from a book that was profoundly touching, raw, and emotionally moving. Being a long-term fan of Tijan did not prepare me for this tremendously beautiful story. A story that carries a message. A message that breaks hearts all over the world. A message that can easily affect you and me.

    I thought Ryan's Bed would be a typical Tijan novel, but it exceeded all my preconceived expectations. And by typical I mean that it would have everything I've come to love about her

    I'm sitting here, still reeling from a book that was profoundly touching, raw, and emotionally moving. Being a long-term fan of Tijan did not prepare me for this tremendously beautiful story. A story that carries a message. A message that breaks hearts all over the world. A message that can easily affect you and me.

    I thought Ryan's Bed would be a typical Tijan novel, but it exceeded all my preconceived expectations. And by typical I mean that it would have everything I've come to love about her novels. Tijan excels at writing young adult novels that are filled with teenage angst and emotional ups and downs. She writes entertaining novels that always feature strong, and feisty heroines. They often include a group of true friends who will stand by the heroine when everything else around her crumbles, and a swoony hero that is devoted to the heroine from the very beginning. All these ingredients make for a spellbinding tale.

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  • Lo Bookfrantic

    has just woken up to her worse nightmare.  Life has never been amazing for this seventeen year old teenager.  She always felt like an outcast with her eleven year old brother Robbie; who was a natural genius and her identical twin sister; Willow who always exc

    has just woken up to her worse nightmare.  Life has never been amazing for this seventeen year old teenager.  She always felt like an outcast with her eleven year old brother Robbie; who was a natural genius and her identical twin sister; Willow who always excels at everything.   Moving to a new city was already a hard change but she never expected to find her sister's dead body and now having to deal with new drama at her new school. 

    was the most popular senior in high school.  He was the basketball star and every girl was madly in love with him.  Ryan was down to earth and I absolutely loved him.  He really didn't care about popularity at all he just wanted to do what he enjoyed.  Ryan never expected to find Mac in his bedroom though; it caught him by surprise but he wanted to make her welcome to the new town and he understood the grieving she was going through with the loss of her sister.

    I actually was so excited when I found out Tijan was writing this story; I am a sucker for deep feels books and especially if they will make me ugly cry (I know whatever lol).  I love pain and I felt this book was incredible; it delivered all the feels and emotions I crave for in a book.  Because I am pain shhlut I re read the sad parts like three times haha.

    This book gutted me, I think I cried for hours because all the feels and all the emotions.  I absolutely loved everything about it.  This book deals with depression, teen suicide and high school drama. It may be a hard topic for readers but I honestly think is important to understand the pressure teenagers really go through each day and is so sad that people ignore it until is too late.  I felt so much for all the characters in this story.  Mac is going through her grieving and she sees her twin sister everywhere until the point that she feels she is going crazy.  She doesn't want to speak up because she doesn't want to be judge or be told she is crazier than how she already feels.  The parents not only lost one of their daughters but their entire world fell apart they didn't know how to come back from it.  I imagine how hard Mac's life was after discovering her sister's dead body looking in the mirror and seeing herself and just seeing her sister and remembering her just by looking in the mirror; I am sure the parents struggled with that as well.

    Overall; this story will be one I would never forget because I loved it so much;

    were such a great characters and seeing all their struggles and accomplishments made this story unique and emotional for me.  Ryan connected with Mac so quickly because he went to a similar situation couple of years before and felt lost as well.  We see a lot of high school drama with Ryan being popular and Mac the new girl in school who captures Ryan's attention is bound to be drama and I freaking loved it. 

    is an excellent book about loss, grief, pain, depression, family, friendships, healing and love.   This book would be appealing to readers who are open minded and are not afraid to venture into sad topics. 

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  • Wendy

    I am a big fan of the 

     series, and when I signed up for this ARC, it was with the hope that this book would resemble that awesome series a bit.

    I got what I wanted....partialy :P

    Parts of this book definitely had a "

    " feel to it...but other parts were...dare I say....

    . This book gutted me from the moment I started reading the first page..... and we all know how much I love a good cryfest ;)

    This book starts of on June 29th.... the day MacKenzie turns 18.

    I am a big fan of the 

     series, and when I signed up for this ARC, it was with the hope that this book would resemble that awesome series a bit.

    I got what I wanted....partialy :P

    Parts of this book definitely had a "

    " feel to it...but other parts were...dare I say....

    . This book gutted me from the moment I started reading the first page..... and we all know how much I love a good cryfest ;)

    This book starts of on June 29th.... the day MacKenzie turns 18.... the same day her twin sister Willow takes her own life....

    MacKenzie and her family have just moved to another town, because of her dad's work. After a horrible tragedy strikes this family down, MacKenzie and her 8 year old brother Robbie, are left with a bussiness associate of their dad's. Their parents have to take care of all sorts of things, and now MacKenzie is stuck with these strangers...not knowing how to feel.....how to be....

    That night she accidently crawls in bed with Ryan, the son of the family. She doesn't know why, but being with him makes her feel safe...and Ryan let's her stay. From then on the only way she can get some sleep, is when she sleeps with him. So she does... every night....and the two of them only grow closer and closer.

    Ryan knows what it's like to lose someone and so he understands MacKenzie and he really wants to be there for her...... the fact that they are both attracted to one another also plays a part....

    But things are not easy.... Mac is very messed up in her head.....her parents won't even look at her, and the girls at the new school hate her, because they want Ryan for themselves....

    Mac is trying her very best not to fall apart...... but maybe falling apart is the way to heal....

    This book was a real suprise to me.... I did not expect to be emotionally gutted. I cried a lot tears, but thanksfully I also smiled a lot of smiles ;)

    So far this is definitely my favorite of this author ! If you don't have a problem reading YA, you should really give this one a try. For those who want to know, there isn't a lot of steam in this one, and what is there is not very detailed....

    There were a few times when I thought Mac was acting a bit childish, and then I remembered that she only just turned 18.....made me feel so freaking old :P

    I highly recommend and now I am off to re-read Fallen Crest High !!

  • Rachel Dyken

    I love Tijan.

    She knows this.

    I tell her all the time.

    But not in a weird way.

    In more of a hey you're super talented and we should be best friends way, so when she gave me an ARC for Ryans bed, I jumped at the chance to read it, I devour all her books even when I'm on deadline for my own books (much to my publishers dismay).

    Going into this book felt like a different experience than other Tijan books, it still had her trademark angst but I think the difference was, the moment you crack the firs

    I love Tijan.

    She knows this.

    I tell her all the time.

    But not in a weird way.

    In more of a hey you're super talented and we should be best friends way, so when she gave me an ARC for Ryans bed, I jumped at the chance to read it, I devour all her books even when I'm on deadline for my own books (much to my publishers dismay).

    Going into this book felt like a different experience than other Tijan books, it still had her trademark angst but I think the difference was, the moment you crack the first page you know something epic is going to happen to you and you know, it's going to hurt, deeply.

    Normally I can read one of her books in a few hours.

    This one took me three days.

    Not because it wasn't incredible but because I had to process everything that was happening to me, to the characters, and inside the story. It was filled with deep layers causing you to question if what you were seeing really was reality or just sadness manifesting itself in the only way it knows how.

    We all deal with grief differently, we all go through different stages, this book actually brought me back to the time when I used to counsel young kids (before I started writing) it reminded me of the pain of loss especially when you're trying to so hard to survive in a tumultuous world like high school. It was everything.

    And that ending.

    *Slow clap*

    I both loved and hated it.

    I even forced my husband listen to me talk about it this morning because I was still processing, that, dear folks, is a good book and a very talented author ;) Hugs, Tijan, thanks for the honor of reading your work!

  • Christy

    When I read the blurb for

    , I thought it would be a sob fest. If you know me, that means I was dying to read it! Add in the gorgeous cover, and I was so excited to get my hands on this book. Honestly, I expected to cry my way through it. Imagine my surprise when I made it to the last chapter without shedding a single tear. Then, I read the last page. And I sobbed. For like an hour after reading the book, I was crying and thinking and crying some more. That last tid-bit of info

    When I read the blurb for

    , I thought it would be a sob fest. If you know me, that means I was dying to read it! Add in the gorgeous cover, and I was so excited to get my hands on this book. Honestly, I expected to cry my way through it. Imagine my surprise when I made it to the last chapter without shedding a single tear. Then, I read the last page. And I sobbed. For like an hour after reading the book, I was crying and thinking and crying some more. That last tid-bit of information shook me to my core.

    Mackenzie, along with her parents, little brother, and twin sister, have just moved states due to her father’s work promotion. She doesn't really know anyone except her family, and she’s getting ready to start her senior year. Mackenzie is the… average one in her family. Both her siblings are extraordinary and she feels plain in comparison. One day shortly after moving, her life is turned upside down. Her twin sister, Willow, kills herself.

    Mackenzie is the person who finds her, and as you can imagine, it’s traumatic for her. She can’t eat, can’t sleep, and doesn’t know what to do with herself. Then, she finds herself in Ryan’s bed. Ryan is a guy who Mackenzie hardly knows. She’s at his parents house and ends up crawling in his bed, at first thinking it’s his sister's. In this bed she finds comfort. She can finally sleep, and just be for a while.

    I LOVED Ryan. I loved Ryan and Mackenzie’s relationship. It started off as just friendship, and Ryan was there for Mackenzie unlike anyone else. He understood her pain and let her be herself, let her react how she needed to react and feel what she needed to feel.

    This story is very much a story of self-discovery, dealing with grief, family issues, and yes- even falling in love. The family aspect was very important, I think. I liked that we got to see how the entire family reacted to this death, how everyone coped, and eventually tried to heal together. Books like this aren’t easy to read. This subject matter is difficult for a lot of people. Anytime I hear of suicide, my heart breaks. Especially teen suicide. I think this is an important book for people to read.

    What I loved most about this story is the strength of both Ryan and Mackenzie. And the ending… I’ll say it again. I got chills. It was so unexpected. And It’s still on my mind. This is a powerful story that will captivate you like only Tijan can! If you’re looking for an unforgettable read, pick up

    !

  •   KAT ⚛ Kitty Kat's Crazy About Books ⚛

    is a stand alone YA romance novel by Tijan. Spoken in Mackenzie's own words.

    This author has a magical way of cloaking her readers in a safe sense of security until the rug is literally pulled right out from under you. The very first chapter reeled me in so fast, like a fish on a hook I was completely hooked, then when I realised exactly what my eyes were reading my heart just dropped. But like a glutton for punishment I had to keep on reading.

    Mackenzie's family had just recent

    is a stand alone YA romance novel by Tijan. Spoken in Mackenzie's own words.

    This author has a magical way of cloaking her readers in a safe sense of security until the rug is literally pulled right out from under you. The very first chapter reeled me in so fast, like a fish on a hook I was completely hooked, then when I realised exactly what my eyes were reading my heart just dropped. But like a glutton for punishment I had to keep on reading.

    Mackenzie's family had just recently moved to Oregon due to their father getting a promotion so what should've been a happy time was shrouded in mourning. A family cut to the bone. Because what would've been a day of celebration on June 29th between twins on the day of their eighteenth birthday was anything but because Willow had decided to end her life and Mackenzie was the one that found her that day in their shared bathroom unresponsive. Dead. Gone. One twin left broken beyond repair. Shattered.

    With her parents taking care of all the funeral arrangements, Mackenzie and her brother Robbie stay at their father’s business associates home for the time being until the the most saddest day is behind them.

    This is where I was hoping we'd get to read about the funeral, but sadly we never got that, I just wanted to stay in that emotional mindset a wee bit longer, to feel emotions that I don't necessarily feel on a day to day basis which is where I rely on authors to pull those out of me.

    It is here where Mackenzie walks into Ryan’s room getting lost on her way to his sisters bedroom and literally crawls into his bed. But it’s in his bed that she finally finds solace and can blissfully succumb to sleep.

    Reading this I couldn't imagine how hard it was for the two siblings being entrusted into strangers care, a family they didn't know. My heart literally broke to smithereens for these two.

    Ryan became her safety blanket out of everyone, he seemed to understand what she was going through the most. Leaving his family and moving into a second new home after selling the other new one Ryan and Mackenzie texted daily until high school started back up, starting a new school and the last year of high school at that was another low blow for Mackenzie without her twin beside her, but Ryan was beside her every step of the way.

    Ryan came across so much older than his eighteen year old self in this book, he was her rock when she needed someone, her shelter when things got bad, this was so much more than your typical ya romance novel, we saw so many layers of Mackenzie, the broken girl, the lost girl, the numb girl but above all else the strong girl.

    As to be expected when dealing with this age group and the Queen of high school drama

    is no different when it comes to Tijan delivering us all the angst and heartbreak that she could unleash on us. Everything this author hoped us readers to feel, I felt, admittedly I even shed a tear or two, then the ending rushed at me and I sat there shrouded in sadness. This book gutted me on so many levels.

  • Katerina

    You don't need to know anything else about

    except that it narrates the story of an eighteen year old girl, Mackenzie, and her life after the suicide of her twin sister. It shows how tremendous grief can tear a family apart, and how cruel and malicious teens can be in order to become p

    You don't need to know anything else about

    except that it narrates the story of an eighteen year old girl, Mackenzie, and her life after the suicide of her twin sister. It shows how tremendous grief can tear a family apart, and how cruel and malicious teens can be in order to become popular. How a strange boy and his compassion can help pull yourself together after your world crumbles and, mainly, how not talking about what bothers you, and not sharing your sorrow, can be lethal.

    , nor elaborates on the reasons why. It simply

    .

    The theme

    chose is sensitive, but she treated it with the necessary respect. I can't even begin to understand what goes through a person's mind in order to take such an irrevocable decision, but I always thought that choosing to end your life is the easy way out. Since that sounds rather harsh, allow me to explain. Real life is full of struggles, burdens and obstacles. For example - and mind that I lead an easy life compared to the pain I witness daily - I can't count the times I've felt emotionally drained, or hurt and desperate, wondering when it'll finally stop. I can't count the times I've shut myself down, and alienated friends, because I craved isolation. All those times, the way out was simple; read a book or spend time with family, even though I was feeling particularly antisocial. Every person has a coping mechanism of their own, and yes, sometimes it may be really hard to find one, but

    Something or someone worth fighting for. Being a teenager, like Willow, is harder, since it's the epitome of drama; first loves, image problems, popularity, high grades etc. But when you're a teenager, sometimes you forget that you have the whole world at your feet, endless possibilities and roads, and -if not all of them- at least a great number depends solely on

    . How can you throw your life away? How can you be so selfish that you numb your own pain by destroying the lives of the ones who love you? Because let's face it, it's not only the life of one person that ends with a suicide. It's the mother, the father, the sibling, the spouse, the friend who has to deal with your absence, with the question whether they were not enough to keep you with them, who go on with a hole in their chests that will never heal. What I'm saying? I'm

    at Willow, for what she threw away and the damage she inflicted to her loved ones. But I'm also mad at her parents who put their own grief above their own child, and stopped being parents. I am angry at those horrible high-school girls who were willing to take advantage of such a delicate and raw wound in order to achieve their petty purposes. And I am angry at Mackenzie, for ignoring the pain and doing stuff out of character because she couldn't care or because she wanted to feel something, anything.

    I am also

    .

    depicted with

    Mackenzie's trauma, and I was constantly

    . There were times I closed the book, and was in such a foul mood that I couldn't stand being around people, because of the darkness and the ache in my heart. And partially, that's the reason I rated

    with 3.5 stars. As contradictory as it may sound, I wanted to finish it because I wanted to breathe again. To shove away the burden of Mackenzie's grief. And that's when I realized that if I, a reader, couldn't handle the sorrow, then it was unfair to stay mad at Mackenzie for trying to survive, to make the day, using any means necessary.

    In this different and consuming story, Ryan's role and his whole relationship with Mackenzie was an oasis. The

    thing about them was that there were zero misunderstandings. Ryan was

    there, supporting Mackenzie, giving her what she needed. And it was a deeply satisfying sentiment, witnessing the kind side of humankind. He was sweet, caring and thoughtful, the only one who didn't shy away from Mackenzie's mood swings and breakdowns. He was her haven, and

    .

    Family relationships were thoroughly explored, and the high-school drama spiced things up but also helped, in its own, twisted way, Mackenzie's journey to acceptance. She was resilient, a survivor, a source of strength for those around her. And Ryan was hers.

    was

    , but I don't think I'd be able to read it again. A catchy closing line, though, is not the one I'm using this time. If you feel trapped,

    . If you feel incompetent,

    . Your life matters, and there's always,

    someone whose reality is beautiful thanks to YOU. You're not the only one who hurts, find your own source of strength, and

    , for your family, and yourself.

  • SueBee★bring me an alpha!★

    Stand-alone.

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