Before I Let Go

Before I Let Go

Best friends Corey and Kyra were inseparable in their snow-covered town of Lost Creek, Alaska. When Corey moves away, she makes Kyra promise to stay strong during the long, dark winter, and wait for her return.Just days before Corey is to return home to visit, Kyra dies. Corey is devastated―and confused. The entire Lost community speaks in hushed tones about the town's los...

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Title:Before I Let Go
Author:Marieke Nijkamp
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Before I Let Go Reviews

  • Sophie

    An ARC has been offered by the publisher in exchange for an honest opinion

    4,5 “eerie” stars

    This book will be hard to review without spoiling your fun so I’ll probably keep it short.

    I’ve se

    An ARC has been offered by the publisher in exchange for an honest opinion

    4,5 “eerie” stars

    This book will be hard to review without spoiling your fun so I’ll probably keep it short.

    I’ve seen readers stopping their reads as they were lost about what kind of book this story was.

    When “it” happened I was puzzled and confused too. I wondered where the author was headed to with the choice she made for this book.

    Everything happens in this very, very small town lost in Alaska with endless nights and snow everywhere. It is weighting on you. It has an oppressive and eerie feeling. Lost is a town that thrives on secrets.

    The small clues left here and there built up the tension till the apex of the thriller.

    All along I was uneasy, shivering, shoulders tense and I could not put it down.

    Back to the story now!

    When Corey comes back home to Lost after she’s learned that her best friend Kyra has been found dead she soon realizes that Lost is not home anymore.

    So much has changed that it’s scary. Its inhabitants who could not stand Kyra seem to have claimed her. She is mourned fervently by everyone and that’s so not what Corey remembers!

    Corey is grieving. She had a very tight friendship with Kyra. Kyra was “special” and I won’t say more about this as to not spoil the book. Let’s just say that the way Marieke Nijkamp described what Kyra went through was spot on. Take it from someone who also has this “kind of” special friends.

    Corey is resenting the town so much! Where were they when Kyra suffered all these years? When they rejected her? Where were they when she needed love and acceptance the more?

    Kyra suffered so long from their rejection because in this little town anything different feels like a threat.

    But Corey is also struggling with her guilt as she can’t avoid thinking that she left Kyra alone too. She has her death on her hands too.

    In the span of six days Corey will try to understand what happened in the few months she left. What really happened to Kyra and to the town?

    She also realizes that even if she is born and grew up for more than sixteen years in Lost she is now an outsider.

    If you can’t stand a book leaving questions unanswered then don’t read this. But if you love books and movies with a mysterious and scary feel, if you love spooky atmosphere then this could be your next fix.

    It was my first Marieke Nijkamp and it won’t be my last as she thinks and writes “out of the box”.

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  • Esther

    The best part of this book, for me, was the setting. I truly hope there are not many towns like Lost Creek around. The town and the people in it gave this book a pretty creepy vibe. I believe this is a likeable book for a lot of people, everyone can find something to bond with in this book and feel satisfactory at the end.

    I have to be honest

    The best part of this book, for me, was the setting. I truly hope there are not many towns like Lost Creek around. The town and the people in it gave this book a pretty creepy vibe. I believe this is a likeable book for a lot of people, everyone can find something to bond with in this book and feel satisfactory at the end.

    I have to be honest here, I did not like This Is Where It Ends that much. I felt that Marieke Nijkamp did not give me enough answers at the end of the book, while the characters and relationships were the best part of the book. I was so happy to see I was chosen to review the book via Netgalley because I did not feel that Marieke Nijkamp is a bad author. I feel that she gave me a satisfactory feeling and the end of the book and was able to write another book with great characters and a lot of feelings and life lessons. So while I try not to compare books, I do have to tell you that I like Before I Let Go better than her first book!

  • Hajar Benmazhar

    I have some mixed feelings about this book!

    The story managed to hook me up from the very start. I loved the short chapters and the beautiful writing. The setting was very gripping; a creepy little town filled with creepy little people with creepy little secrets.

    I usually quite enjoy flashbacks in stories but in this one, I just felt like they’ve missed the point. Instead of chopped bit and pieces that don’t add much to the story, they could’ve been utilised in a way to give a much better underst

    I have some mixed feelings about this book!

    The story managed to hook me up from the very start. I loved the short chapters and the beautiful writing. The setting was very gripping; a creepy little town filled with creepy little people with creepy little secrets.

    I usually quite enjoy flashbacks in stories but in this one, I just felt like they’ve missed the point. Instead of chopped bit and pieces that don’t add much to the story, they could’ve been utilised in a way to give a much better understanding of what happened. The characters weren’t that well developed and that’s probably why I couldn’t connect to them. Moreover, the ending wouldn’t necessarily fit my definition of satisfying but I still managed to enjoy it.

    All in all, this story could’ve been much better but it is still worth a read!

    I would like to thank the Publishers, NetGalley, and the Author for sending me an ARC of this book.

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  • Reading.Between.Wines

    ⭐⭐⭐ / 5

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    First of all, I love the cover of this book. It is so beautiful and fitting. Sourcebooks Fire sent me

    as a bonus book with

    and I was very intrigued by the plot. Unfortunately, this book just wasn't as great as I was hoping it would be.

    felt to me to be about friendships, loss,

    ⭐️⭐️⭐️ / 5

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    First of all, I love the cover of this book. It is so beautiful and fitting. Sourcebooks Fire sent me

    as a bonus book with

    and I was very intrigued by the plot. Unfortunately, this book just wasn't as great as I was hoping it would be.

    felt to me to be about friendships, loss, and small town mentality. I like that it switched between past and present, and you learn the most about Kyra from the past chapters and the letters she writes to Corey. The different styles this book is written in was also a nice change. There are phone calls, notes/letters both sent and unsent, and parts that are written like a script.

    However, I feel like we only scratch the surface of these characters, and I didn't feel like there was much depth to them. Corey felt like the only fully developed character to me which was kind of odd.

    Also, this book was just

    . I was confused for almost the entire book, and I still don't feel like there was enough closure at the end. There were too many things infused into this book that didn't get explained which drove me a little crazy. Eyes watching her? Voices she hears? The salmonberry blossoms left everywhere (including on her at one point?!). None of it gets explained. Also, the weird chanting and actions by the townspeople and the semi-crazy ending seemed so off and unexplained. I felt like I was in an alternate universe and you wake up and don't remember what happened.

    was definitely a very fast read (it took me about a day total to read it), and I stayed up late(ish) to finish it because I just couldn't fathom how this book was going to end. There isn't really a mystery here that you can't figure out, but I literally had no idea what was going to happen to Corey when shit started getting crazy.

    Final Thought: I still want to give

    a try even though I didn't LOVE this one. I'm a little concerned that

    might just not be an author that I can connect to, but I still want to give it a shot. I don't want to say I would never recommend this because it wasn't that bad, and I was interested *confused* enough that I read all of it and didn't skim. If you're looking for a creepy/weird/fast read you might want to give this one a try and see what you think. I loved the underlying creepiness, there just wasn't enough that I loved for me to give this one more than a 3.

    *This title was published on 02 Jan 2018*

  • Cesar

    2 stars

    With a setting in a small Alaskan town, you would expect

    to have some atmosphere of a small-town mystery surrounded by snow and dreariness. But just like

    , Before I Let Go doesn't have that appeal as well as having boring characters.

    Before I Let Go is at best (in my opinion) a mediocre book. I know I might be sounding mean, but there was nothing appealing about the story or characters. It's bland and doesn't really offer much other than being another generic bo

    2 stars

    With a setting in a small Alaskan town, you would expect

    to have some atmosphere of a small-town mystery surrounded by snow and dreariness. But just like

    , Before I Let Go doesn't have that appeal as well as having boring characters.

    Before I Let Go is at best (in my opinion) a mediocre book. I know I might be sounding mean, but there was nothing appealing about the story or characters. It's bland and doesn't really offer much other than being another generic book about a small-town mystery. There is nothing wrong with that type of genre if it is done well. Before I Let Go was just plain boring and didn't have that vibe of an eerie mystery.

    Before I Let Go is a small-town mystery book that takes place in a small town in Alaska called Lost Creek. Our main character, Corey, was set to return to Lost Creek to visit when she finds out her best friend, Kyra, has died. When Corey does get to Lost Creek, she discovers something is wrong with not only the town but the people themselves. They're keeping secrets about what really happened with Kyra and Corey wants to find answers.

    Before I Let Go could've been a great book had it not been for its lackluster atmosphere and dead-ass boring lead character. Even if this is another small-town mystery book, they can still be a great read. There's no denying the ominous tone to these types of books where not everything is what it seems and that your closest neighbors and friends could be hiding something.

    Before I Let Go had none of that. It did have secrets but they were not presented in a good way.

    (1). Lack of Atmosphere.

    For many mystery books, there is this feeling you get knowing that a secret could very well rip apart a person or a community. It's even more creepy if it takes place in a small town where literally nowhere is safe.

    By all means, Lost Creek should've been a perfect setting. It's not.

    There was no atmosphere to be seen anywhere. This was the same issue I had with her previous novel,

    where I did like the idea but it didn't have that effect of a school shooting and the characters were boring as well. I figured that maybe Marieke did improve on that but it seems like it still stayed the same.

    There was no suspense. There was no hook. There was no fear. There was nothing. It may have been a fast read, but by no means did that mean it was a good book.

    The Alaskan setting did help somewhat, but only a little since I never got that Alaskan vibe. Plus I'm sure small towns like Lost Creek don't have police chiefs or something like that.

    (2) Boring Character.

    Corey is without a doubt a boring character. I don't hate her, but there isn't anything interesting about her to redeem her. She was so boring I forgot her name twice. That is not a good sign. To me, all she was was a friend who wanted to find out the secret of her friend's death. And that's fine and all, but she didn't have much of a personality.

    She wasn't unique in any way and came off as generic. She could've been a great character had Marieke put in a personality other than being a mystery solver.

    (3) Credibility.

    There were a few instances where I had to suspend my disbelief with how the town reacted to Kyra's death and Corey's intrusion. It felt way too much like something from a cheesy movie (another issue I had with This is Where it Ends). There were even chapters where it was written in a script format that didn't add to the story. It was random. If Corey was interested in writing or playwriting, then it would make sense. But she wasn't and it was redundant.

    (4) Boring Read.

    Since there was no atmosphere, my experience with Before I Let Go was a boring one. The chapters were short so I was glad I didn't have to endure more than 8 pages of boring dialogue.

    This isn't a major issue I had with the story, but I got to say it. In This is Where it Ends, the town is called Opportunity. The town in Before I Let Go is called Lost Creek, shortened to Lost. I can't with these names. 😑

    Honestly, there weren't that many pros.

    (1) Some good representation.

    I did find Kyra's bipolar disorder to be a good rep. It didn't look like it was handled badly so I'll give Marieke props for that.

    (2) Friendship.

    The moments between Corey and Kyra was probably the highlight of the book. They really did care for each other and even with Corey not understanding Kyra's bipolar disorder, she was still there and didn't leave her.

    A boring read with a boring character. No eerie atmosphere, lackluster story. I worry that if Marieke doesn't improve her writing, I believe her future books will suffer the same just like Before I Let Go and This is Where it Ends.

    There is a story in Before I Let Go, but it didn't live up to it and sadly disappointed me.

    Thanks for reading my review!

    -Cesar

  • Elise (TheBookishActress)

    The level of mediocrity here is just

    . Given how ranty this review is, maybe I should one star this, but I honestly just don't have the fucking energy to hate this book. It's too mediocre to deserve hatred.

    is a cliche story that tries to be something more but is not fooling me.

    I'm going to full-out explain everything I disliked and liked about this book, but really, I should replace the whole review with “read Tess Sharpe's

    ” written fifty-eight times down

    The level of mediocrity here is just

    . Given how ranty this review is, maybe I should one star this, but I honestly just don't have the fucking energy to hate this book. It's too mediocre to deserve hatred.

    is a cliche story that tries to be something more but is not fooling me.

    I'm going to full-out explain everything I disliked and liked about this book, but really, I should replace the whole review with “read Tess Sharpe's

    ” written fifty-eight times down the page. That book is also focused on girl friendship with romantic vibes, but it's got far more developed characters to drive the story. Read Far From You!! Do it!!

    Can I summarize this book for you?

    was especially disappointing for me because of all the comparisons it begs to every other suspense book ever. I was really hoping this would differentiate itself with a new take on all those tropes. Uh. Nope, it's not an original take.

    and also predictable.

    Here's the thing, though: any cliche suspense book can be saved.

    There are two options:

    Yeah, this book doesn't do either. Let's get into those two factors.

    We all know that

    . But I do tend to enjoy them. Why? Because at its core,

    (Do you know why I just called her our protagonist? Because it has been less than twenty minutes since I finished this book and I just forget Corey's name.) Moving on.

    #1 - As I've already mentioned,

    Informed traits do not make a character - what we need is an inner monologue. And unfortunately, Corey doesn't have any unique thoughts or reactions to the world. I feel as if she's a character I should adore, but most of her character is for the reader's emotional manipulation.

    #2 - I do think

    Kyra's BPD is represented well, at least, and other characters are clear on the fact that she is

    than her BPD. That is an awesome theme and maybe the one thing I liked about this book. But, uh... she's textually not much more than her BPD. I do think, to be positive, that it comes from a matter of lacking effort on the part of the author rather than a genuine distaste for mentally ill people.

    #3 - Kyra and Corey's relationship just seems so... lacking in problems? Kyra gets rejected and is not that weird about it, they hardly fight, there's not much tension between them. There are one or two moments where past Kyra mentions feeling like no one, not even Corey, sees her as anything but her BPD. That was interesting idea I would've liked to explore. Yet it feels oddly glossed over, and more importantly,

    . It feels like an informed character trait and loses all its interest within the narrative.

    Basically, I just felt like every problem and character trait was informed rather than shown. I

    that it's young adult, but listen -

    . Moving on.

    The book could've gotten away with its incredibly lacking characters if the plot weren't so fucking obvious.

    There's no twist. The townsfolk start saying “it was her natural end” on page 50 and they stay on that exact same phrase right to the end. When the whole town is saying the same thing, you know what's going on.

    And this is maybe what ruins the book the most.

    . (Remember Daughter of Deep Silence?) Nijkamp tries to add atmosphere, at least. There are a ton of minor touches where Corey thinks she's being followed by ghosts. But all these touches just felt really superficial because they don't add to the story. There's no explanation of anything that Corey sees, so it feels like

    . You can't add ghosts and then not explain it just for atmosphere.

    The other issue is that any atmosphere created is ruined by the thrown-in chapters written in script format.

    . There were a few scenes written in script that honestly kind of felt like the author drafted a scene and couldn't be bothered to translate it into normal writing. But okay,

    . The epistolatory chapters and the flashback chapters fit in fine, but

    I almost thought Nijkamp was planning on some kind of reveal about these chapters being fake because of how misplaced they felt.

    I did like the use of

    as a method to create atmosphere. Honestly, though,

    . If you're looking for a book that uses Alaska to create a truly great atmosphere, look to

    instead.

    This book does have an

    who is called such on-page. Unfortunately,

    , which is a major inaccuracy. Corey isn't rejecting Kyra because she's ace; if she's rejecting Kyra because of her sexuality, she's rejecting Kyra due to aromanticism. I expect Nijkamp was trying to make this book more palatable to readers who don't know what asexuality is, let alone aromanticism, but

    While I'm happy with the majority-queer cast and themes about sexuality, the lack of use of the term "aromanticism" really, really bothers me.

    I will say that Nijkamp has a very

    writing style. I finished this in only two sittings and it wasn't a struggle to get through. And while a lot of the book felt to me like smoke-and-mirrors meant to make the readership think things were deeper than they are, I think this could be a good book to mindlessly consume. It's not going to be a DNF. However, I think plenty of readers will find it easy to see through this book. I'm starting to doubt if I would like

    if I read it today - Nijkamp is good at emotionally manipulative writing, but I don't think this book is trying to shoot for anything deeper that readers can

    connect to.

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  • Inge

    I'm... not sure how I feel about this book.

    On the one hand, it has a very interesting premise. Sure, at its base, this storyline has been used a lot. But every author adds something different. In the case of

    , I really enjoyed the Alaskan setting, as well as the eerie atmosphere it provided. There's also the matter of diverse representation: pansexual, asexual (though I felt like she was more aromantic?), gay, bipolar disorder. I did really love the mystery.

    But a lot of the time,

    I'm... not sure how I feel about this book.

    On the one hand, it has a very interesting premise. Sure, at its base, this storyline has been used a lot. But every author adds something different. In the case of

    , I really enjoyed the Alaskan setting, as well as the eerie atmosphere it provided. There's also the matter of diverse representation: pansexual, asexual (though I felt like she was more aromantic?), gay, bipolar disorder. I did really love the mystery.

    But a lot of the time, I had no idea what was going on, and that stayed with me for the rest of the book. I was hoping for more answers, but not much changes between Corey's arrival and her departure from Lost Creek. She gets called "outsider" a lot, gets treated like crap, the townspeople are very weird. It got very repetitive very fast. She discovers a few things about Kyra's time before her death, but overall, you know the whole story pretty early on, which was kind of disappointing. There were also scenes that were written more like screenplays, which was very odd.

    I do have to compliment the writing as the book was very easy to read, but I can't say I enjoyed it much. It lacked development in terms of character and plot and missed a climax or just overall closure.

  • Carrie

    When Corey moved away from her home town of snow covered Lost Creek, Alaska she promised her best friend, Kyra, that she would always stay in touch and always be there for her. As with most teens though Corey's new life and new friends she made after her move kept her busy so she wasn't the best with keeping in touch with Kyra. Corey did have plans for returning to Lost Creek very soon though and finally seeing Kyra again.

    Unfortunately Corey receives a phone call that Kyra has passed away, she

    When Corey moved away from her home town of snow covered Lost Creek, Alaska she promised her best friend, Kyra, that she would always stay in touch and always be there for her. As with most teens though Corey's new life and new friends she made after her move kept her busy so she wasn't the best with keeping in touch with Kyra. Corey did have plans for returning to Lost Creek very soon though and finally seeing Kyra again.

    Unfortunately Corey receives a phone call that Kyra has passed away, she was found under the ice in the lake that should have been frozen solid this time of year. Some think that Kyra purposely went looking for a weak spot in the ice and a way to end her own life after battling mental illness for years. Corey knows she needs to return to Lost Creek and get some answers on just what happened to her best friend.

    Before I Let Go by Marieke Nijkamp is a young adult mystery read. After finishing this book I'm beginning to think that perhaps Marieke Nijkamp is just not an author for me. Last year I read This Is Where It Ends and while the idea behind the story was one that I was really taken in with the execution of the book left a lot to be desired for me and unfortunately now I can say the same with Before I Let Go.

    I think really my biggest issue with this book came with the character development which was pretty non-existent. Corey is really the only character that felt developed and I find myself hard pressed to say even that as all that is repeated is she and Kyra had been close so now instead of owning up to her own mistakes she is determined to find who is at fault for Kyra's death which should be touching and emotional but instead I just disliked Corey and found myself not caring if other's were at fault or not.

    Now as far as the mystery is concerned in this one it is buried within the repetitive nature of Corey blaming the town and eventually does come to light. It's one that I might have been really taken with as there was a creepy and disturbing vibe but if I blinked while reading I would have missed it as that part of the story wasn't developed very well in my opinion. So as sad as I am to say this one just wasn't for me and as much as the ideas behind Ms. Nijkamp's stories appeal to me I think this may be my last attempt.

    I received an advance copy from the publisher via NetGalley.

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  • Liz Overberg

    To be blunt, this book just

    In order to build a growing sense of unease, a good storyteller will slowly build from "things seem pretty normal here" to "WTF is going on?!" Unfortunately, this story starts at the latter and stays there, effectively killing any tension.

    The events are

    repetitive. I think the main character, Corey, has the same conversations with others and with herself about 76 times.

    There is absolutely zero characterization of any characters other than the p

    To be blunt, this book just

    In order to build a growing sense of unease, a good storyteller will slowly build from "things seem pretty normal here" to "WTF is going on?!" Unfortunately, this story starts at the latter and stays there, effectively killing any tension.

    The events are

    repetitive. I think the main character, Corey, has the same conversations with others and with herself about 76 times.

    There is absolutely zero characterization of any characters other than the protagonist, Corey, and her friend Kyra. Kyra's parents may as well be the sheriff may as well be the post office clerk may as well be the other people in town. They are all exactly the same character with different names.

    Forgiving the elements of the story that are meant to be mysterious and possibly magical, too many things don't add up. After Corey, a 17-year-old girl, moved away from her best friend, she never texted or called? Corey and Kyra's only option for communication was snail mail? In 2017? The author makes a lame attempt at using the poor cell phone reception excuse, but you would think Kyra could have talked on a landline. Or emailed? Skyped?

    Finally, Corey is the worst. She is self-righteous and unsympathetic. I don't even care that she was right about the things that she was saying. She was angry and unlikable, and she didn't attempt to make sense of anything before she went around yelling at everyone that they were bad people. And you know what? They were bad people. Which was not really explained

    I feel like this was the type of really melodramatic, overly-long, not well written story that would get submitted in a freshman writing workshop. Steer clear.

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